I kicked hard rock

2007-09-09T05:09:00.000-07:00

Being the captain was never easy for me at all, but there's always this girl who's always there for me.Ever since I took the role of a captain, it's just work, work and more work.And as time passed, I started to spend lesser quality time with her.My schedule is just never ending during the school semester.I've tried squeezing some time out so that I can spend more time with her, but it was never enough.She's this understanding girl who never complain much bout me being so cropped up with my duty as a captain, but I knew deep inside her, she felt that she was neglected and lonely. And sometimes, I just felt that I wasn't the best mate ever. I'm sorry.But on the other side, I believe that when I took the role of a captain, it was my responsibility to care for the team and form an ultimate racing kayak team. I just hope she'll continue to be my pillar of support for the time being until the day I step down. I love you baby.

2007-09-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

Ho Ho Ho!Finally I'm able to blog once again after losing my password months ago, and also due to me being soooooooooooo lazy to reset it.

Okay where shall I start?

2007-03-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

One day she'll get fucking screwed for her fucking attitude.
I hope she gets death threat.always.

2007-01-29T05:00:00.000-08:00

28th Jan 2006

National kayaking Marathon

A day to remember

I seriously still can't get over it,

it has been on my mind every now and then.

why must this kind of thing happen to me?

2007-01-07T05:37:00.000-08:00

It seems like all the Ryan I know are all in the way of my path.
Not the best of places to be.

2006-12-31T06:43:00.000-08:00

fuck.down with stomach flu on new year's eve.
shitting and vomiting like nobody's business.
please stab me.someone please.

2006-12-24T07:02:00.000-08:00

Went for Julyn's baptism ceremony today.It was kinda long though.And her service was in chinese, all of us were totally lost as the chinese used was kinda profound.

Lunch and after that,only damien,derek,waiung and me were together.Slack at united square for quite some time.

Went over to town around late evening to FEEL christmas but...it didn't really work well cause it was drizzling and humid and crowded and smelly.bad bad conditions.Slack again at cine and we decided to go home after a long day out.

Guess you're having a great time with J now.hell know what you guys will be doing.It better I stop thinking.anyway, merry christmas baby.love you.

2006-12-20T09:34:00.000-08:00

if thats what you call yourself a pal, a brother, I think its better we just end this friendship. mark and me have been treating you like a pal and what you did today is beyond hope. You're just treating us like an idiot.We waited the whole day since early in the morning, spending our time walking aimlessly in town, just to wait for you to knock off at 11pm, and you just off your phone and ignore us.what's this?your servants?I'm so dissappointed with you. I really am if that's how you treat your good pals.

guess you guys had fun reading books and yeah he never gave up.cool huh?
fuck it.

2006-12-18T21:37:00.000-08:00

I can't help but keep thinking bout stuff you guys do everytime you meet up.
it's just too sweet for me to take it.I just can't take it.
It hurts me so much.

the only way for me to feel better is to switch my mind to thoughts that contains all the sweet stuff that we've done.

2006-12-17T06:39:00.000-08:00

Been a tough week for me.
with common tests, death of my friend, and some personal stuff happening.

I couldn't take it to but to call you.
you voice just makes me smile so badly.
I don't know why.but it does.
as if it came from an angel.
that sweet little thing.
I just can't let go.

2006-12-15T07:16:00.000-08:00

It's the fifth night without hearing your voice humming me to bed.
that suck so much.anyway, it's time for bed.

I'll be your stars if you'll be my sky.
I miss you.

2006-12-14T06:08:00.000-08:00

No matter what, you'll always be my one and only foo huiyi.

I'll keep waiting for you to play the violin for me.
I'll keep waiting for you to get me my daisies.
I'll keep waiting for the day we'll go on a cruise together.
I'll keep waiting for the day we'll have duck rice + herbal soup.

I'll just keep waiting for you.I love you so much baby.

2006-12-13T05:38:00.000-08:00

You know best, if you're just writing that as a friend or as something else.
You know it.No matter what I say, you'll have your reasons.
Anyway, I don't have any say in whatever you do.

Lips of an angel - Hinder

honey why are you calling me so late?

It's kinda hard to talk right now.

honey why are you crying?Is everything okay?

I gotta whisper' cause I can't be too loud

well, my girl's in the next room

sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice calling my name

it sounds so sweet

coming from the lips of an angel

hearing those words make me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

and, yes, I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

will it start a fight

no, I don't think she has a clue

well, my girl's in the next room

sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice calling my name

it sounds so sweet

coming from the lips of an angel

hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

but girl you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of an angel

it's really good to hear your voice calling my name

it sounds so sweet

coming from the lips of an angel

hearing those words it make me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

but girl you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye

but girl you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of an angel

honey, why are you calling me so late?

2006-12-12T17:27:00.000-08:00

it's just obvious that I meant nothing anymore.
On the same day that you wrote an email to me, you wrote a sweet testi to J.
How the hell am I suppose to trust whatever you say?
I tried to be ignorant, but I just can't buy that.

Its hard to be faithful,
with the lips of an angel - hinder

2006-12-12T06:44:00.000-08:00

you remove our photos from your friendster.why?
please tell me why?

2006-10-30T07:02:00.000-08:00

I've decided to stop updating and close this blog.
There are just too many unwanted black pest reading my blog.
Another reason is that,I'm feeling quite moody recently.
I shall not go much into it.

2006-10-23T07:49:00.000-07:00

Last week was the first week of school.A rather short week of school,with mostly introduction and lab safety briefing taking place.

After the introduction,I think biochemistry and organic chemistry are meant for me to fail and pull my GPA to 1.5 for this semester.

It has been rather boring since school started.Except for kayaking training that has sort of brighten up my life in school.

With school semester starting,it also means that I'll have lesser time for Freya.I really hope I'll be able to plan my schedule well,so as to balance my homework,training and time for my love one.

Flu has been sucking life out of me for days.Guess it's due to the haze that cause my nose irritation,thus leading to flu.Bad bad air condition we have in Singapore for weeks,and seriously,its really harmful to us.

Thank you for the medicine baby.I really love you so much.<3

2006-10-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

Its a bad bad day today.
Thanks for what you said,you'll never ever get to redeem yourself.
asshole.

spend almost the whole day alone.
Went to MB after school to catch up with Romeo and gang.
Once in awhile,I'll just drop by and somehow they'll be there for me.
Life is so incomplete without them.

oh,Azlan is quitting and thats really sad news for me.
Ever since he joined us,everyone enjoyed his company,
and he's like my dad in MB.I feel that I can go to him whenever I needed help.
Its really sad news.

Met up with Freya after that.
She gulps down her half-boiled eggs instead of scooping them slowly.
pig.she doesn't know how to enjoy good food.
hahahah.

Everytime when I'm troubled,I'll just lie on your shoulders and close my eyes
and worries I have seems to disappear.It works ALL the time.
I really love you.

2006-10-13T05:58:00.000-07:00

The cruise was boring.
Where ever I go,they'll ask me for my cruise pass.
Which means I got rejected when I went to the club and the casino.

I saw Wei shen when I was on the cruise.
He was wandering around the ship like me,so we decided to hang out together.
I mean,seriously,if you're below 18,don't bother getting on a cruise,theres nothing to do.
Lucky we had Wei shen's elder brother and friend with us.So we played Dai Di for the whole first night.Lost $30.argh.

The second day,we ended up playing Scramble!Its damn fun lar playing with them.Wei shen's brother is damn funny.The way he talk.oh my.We literally laugh through the whole game!!So they were the once who entertain me during the cruise.

Now as I'm updating my blog.I somehow miss being on the ship.It damn relaxing when you're on board a cruise.I was hoping that you were with me throughout the whole trip.=(
I miss you soooo much.

2006-10-10T21:21:00.000-07:00

In a few hours time, I'll be leaving for haborfront.
Just a short cruise to KL.
Surprisingly, Karen will be on the same cruise as me.
hahaha.It'll be a good time to catch up with her.

I'll miss you bad baby.
Take this time to practice your chess skills.
<3

2006-10-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

Sins of the day

1th sin

Went to have supper with Damien after training at prata house

Both of us had 2 plain pratas and a milo dinosaur to ourselves

after that we left without paying

2nd sin

Mum cooked dinner at home and I agreed to eat when I reach home after training

But when I reach home,I was too full to eat

So I had to do something to show that I did ate dinner

I took a plastic bag and started throwing the rice and the veggies inside

And threw it in the rubbish bin outside

I know thats bad,but its better than letting them know I didn't eat dinner

Mum will be disappointed

I seriously need to redeem myself after commiting these 2 sins.

So I did something during the night and I think I've already redeem myself

I feel like playing chess now.anyone?

2006-10-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here

suppressed by all of my childish fears

and if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

because your presence just lingers here

and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you scream i'd fight away all your fears

and i'd held your hand through all of theses years

but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me

by your resonating light

but now i'm bound by the life you left behind

your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams

your voice it chase away all the sanity in me

these wounds just won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you scream i'd fight away your fears

and i've held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

and though you're still with me

i've been here all along

I love you

2006-10-07T23:05:00.000-07:00

Watersports Camp.6th-8th

At first I thought my Camp group was pathetic.but never judge a book by its cover.They are a bunch of cool people,who are fun to be with.Now as I'm typing,I'm missing them.=(

Our group was called the 'Ocean devils'!!okay,it sounds a little primary school.But we couldn't really think of a nice name,so we make do with this.

Anyway,its not the name thats important.Its the PEOPLE.At first we only had 8 members in the group.which was considered the smallest among the all the other groups which have 12 or 13 members.But as time pass,our group become bigger with latecomers joining.

We had this captain's ball competition on the second day.And amazingly,we got 2nd overall.=D
But I guess by the end of the competition.Many teams would have hated us cause we were quite...rough.hahhaha.but a game is just a game.We were all friends after that.

The air condition was quite bad during the couple of days in camp.Haze was causing many people to cough badly and irritated my eyes badly.My eyes were so dry and dusty that i had no choice but to change to my specs occasionally.

Ocean Devils.I'll remember the fun and laugther we had in these 2 short but memorable days.

dan-

2006-10-03T05:26:00.000-07:00

I miss you,I really do.

2006-10-02T21:20:00.000-07:00

Those people are just so fucking stupid and insensitive to the surrounding.
Can't they just stop fooling around and talk when someone around them is pissed off?
Fucking irritating people.Shall not go any further.

Thats the bad thing bout having online journals.
You will never know who's reading when they're not suppose to.

Finally,HUHU's promos are over,and now she's able to enjoy herself.
<3

2006-10-01T03:02:00.000-07:00

I just had a moodswing.

Saw the amount of testimonials you wrote for him.

It was overwhelming.

Everything seems so sweet.

Can I ever get that amount of love from you?

It seem impossible.

I'm so fucking jealous that I feel like cutting myself.

I'm such a jerk.

2006-10-01T02:18:00.000-07:00

Met up with HUHU and gang during the evening.
ended up sitting at Maestro Bistro out of all places in town.
hahaha.
Played card games.UNO and bridge.
I still dont understand bridge.sorry Huang.=D

Shit.holidays are coming to an end.
I love the lifestyle I'm going through during the holidays.
So relaxing.
Work,training,movies,stayovers.totally awsome.

The best thing is I get to see HUHU.
Shes writing a book soon.
on her theories bout life.her crap theories lar.
hahaha.
But shes still love.x)

2006-09-28T10:10:00.000-07:00

Bad day today.I serve out a cake that had a little mould on it.argh.It was a moment of carelessness that cause such a mistake.The customers took a photo of it and said they'll claim all medical expenses from us if she happen to fall sick.shit.I'm feeling quite bad cause I don't want to get Suhaimi(my manager) into any trouble cause of me.I'm really sorry bro.

Shit,I really have to catch up with my training.Seems like the others have been training real hard.Derek,Yirui, and Joel are already able to balance k!I'm lagging behind.

Awsome night.why do I love you so much?

2006-09-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

snow patrol - chasing cars

we'll do it all everything,on our own.
we don't need anything or anyone.
If I lay here,would you lie with me
and just forget the world.
I don't quite know how to say,
how to feel.
Those three words are said too much,
they're not enough.

I love you so much.

love,
your pornstar <3

2006-09-22T08:33:00.000-07:00

I wished I knew her earlier in IJC.
She takes my breathe away.All the time.
Been through amazing moments with her.
The love was strong.So strong.
How's life gonna be after promos?
we're just so scandalous.
Lets have sex.

2006-09-22T07:40:00.000-07:00

worked on wednesday night and went drinking with Ryan,Jay and Zam.Was on my way home when suddenly the urge to drink overcame me and I walked back to Maestro bistro.We headed to this coffeeshop near Centrepoint.

It was Ryan's treat for the day!I was like "phew,lucky he paid for everything.otherwise I'll be burning a hole in my pocket."haahah.

Drank until 5am and I seriously couldn't take anymore down my stomach.Jay started puking first and it was quite contagious, I was next to puke.Saw lots of BBQ chicken coming out.=/ hahahah.

Cabbed home with Jay after that.

Slept for an hour or so and woke up.Headed to CCK to meet Julyn,and helped her with her stuff.
On the mrt, I just felt like puking.I was feeling bad bad bad.

Reach Siloso Beach around 11am.Played volleyball,sun-tanned and swim.Oh ya,we had lots of food with us.so it was quite well organised.Julyn's curry chicken was damn nice lar.keep eating her curry.hahaha.

The sun was so strong!And Damien please stop going to the weather forcasting website that you're going!!hahah.Rmb you checked the weather for Thursday and it said that it will rain,but it didn't!!All of us were red like cooked lobsters at the end of the day.Especially derek!!hahaha.

They stayed over at my house after dinner.Some slept.Some watched tv while closing their eyes in front of the tv.(I don't know how Damien,Derek and Joel watched tv) hahahah.And me,I slept all the way.Too tired.I'm really really sorry guys for being such a bad host.I was really shag.

Had much fun throughout the day.Love you guys!!=D

2006-09-14T09:34:00.000-07:00

It ends tonight.Its over.

It was a decision you've made.

I can't do anything.ANYTHING.

All the promises that you made were all lies.

bullshit.

Blame it on my stupidity,

to fall deeply in love with you.

But, I just did.

2006-09-12T08:43:00.000-07:00

2006-09-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

I'm in love.Totally in love.Had the sweetest chat on the phone last night.

Can't wait for tomorrow's evening.=D

you give me orgasms 24/7.<3

Training today was great.Been a long time since I excercise!opps*

Did gym training today.I need that hot hot body.
hahahaha.

The sight of people smiling when they're late just irks me.

They think its freaking funny and cool to be late when its not.at all.

Don't you guys know its freaking rude when you're always late?

fucking retards.

2006-09-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

What have I done by coming between you guys?
I'm lost.

2006-09-09T09:33:00.000-07:00

Crashed nyjc yesterday and accompanied HUHU for her revision.
I felt really bad cause I was more of a distraction for her and her friends!
oh ya,HUHU really has some nice friends in her school.at least so much better than some of my my classmates.
Went to have prata at prata house after that.I'll never get sick of the prata over there.but it depends on who you eat with.x)

HUHU.MY EVERYTHING.MY ADDICTION.

2006-09-06T22:47:00.000-07:00

watched Devil wears Prada with Shermien on Tuesday.Its a rather interesting movie!Go watch it people!

I just love working in Maestro Bistro.Its like a big family over there.Everyone seems to look after each other's back.

Recently many china people keep adding me in msn and keep telling me they like me.
Can you guys stop adding me?Its getting on my nerve.Fuck you.

2006-09-04T20:11:00.000-07:00

Been working the past few days,and its freaking tiring.Especially during Friday and Saturday.

I miss training badly but the cut on my leg still needs some time to heal.Its kinda pain when I walk now.

Went Prawn fishing with my colleagues after work yesterday.At first it was quite boring to me, cause they were not catching any prawns and I was so tired after working.

Only around 4.30am,I went to rent a rod and started fishing,then I realised its quite fun.We had a competition!Din,Romeo and me.And guess what,I won okay!hahaha.

Left around 8.30am in the morning.Fell asleep on the cab.

Oh,I met up with Miss Foo on Sunday!=D

Fatigue is setting in.

2006-08-31T07:18:00.000-07:00

Thursday

Went rowing in the morning with Derek,Yirui,Alfred and Damien,and we did triangles.Rowing was tough and tiring,and I guess I came in last for the 2 triangles that we did.bad bad bad.Must really really train hard.

Headed to Damien's house after rowing and slack over there for the whole afternoon.Around 5pm,we headed to school for land training,and frankly speaking,I wasn't in the mood to train cause I was sooooo sleepy.hahaha.but in the end I still went for training.

guess what?only 10 kayakers appeared for training.hahah.It was raining heavily and therefore,we did gym.After gym workout,Damien show us some videos of olympic races,and somehow it really really motivates me a lot a lot to train hard and perform well.

After that, we were asked to write down our dreams that we hope to achieve in kayaking on a piece of paper.And as what I wrote down on the paper, I going to win you Timothy in sprints.I promise.

Looking back, I realise I've joined kayaking for near 4 months already.Throughout the course of these 4 months, I've made countless amazing friends.One such person is Derek.He's one guy that I really enjoyed being with during training. Every training, he has been the one that trains side by side with me, and the one that motivates and push me to train harder everytime I have the thought of giving up.Putting aside kayaking, we're actually people of pretty much the same frequency.Always gossiping non-stop and chatting like no bodies business.hahaha.Its pretty boring in kayaking without the presence of him around.

Another such person is Damien,my captain.During training,he did his job and without a doubt,he's a great captain to have.He has also been the one that has been pushing me had during rowing all the time.And so far, he's been guiding me well.Outside of kayaking, he's one lame guy who always say stupid jokes.hahhaha.But its always fun to have him around!And,he loves gossiping too!hahaa.

These are just some people that brighten up my life in poly.Thanks guys!!=D

Feel the pain.Enjoy the pain.Love the pain.

Today

Teacher's Day today and so I went back to Whitley secondary school.But it was more of a gathering with my friends rather than catching up with my subjects teachers.hahaha.heck care.
As usual,the Teacher's Day performance was pathetic.Emcees were horrible.

After that, we headed to town and chill.Catching up was great!!And with the presence of many cam-whores, lots of photos were taken.haha.Around 4pm,we split and left for different places.The girls obviously went shopping, the guys went to Cine and played lan games!hahaha.
It was a great day.Really miss my secondary school life!!argh.

I want to meet you badly.

2006-08-29T06:05:00.000-07:00

Last paper today and it was....not bad.hahah.Did last minute revision yesterday.
Felt damn good cause I studied the whole day without slacking much!okay,I know its quite common to you guys but its quite rare to me so....ya let me brag alittle bout it..hahaha.

Shall start planning for schedule for my holiday now.But so far basically my plans are to train in the morning and go for work in the evening.I just can't wait to go shopping with my salary.More clothes for next semester!

Sea training in the morning and land training in the afternoon tomorrow.=D

what have I become?
Is it right?

2006-08-26T04:36:00.000-07:00

Went rowing in the morning with Derek,Gen,Anju,Hsing yee and Damien.All of us manage to get a T1 to ourselves.When I was about to set off,I CAPSIZED.it was damn embarassing,and lucky not many people were there during a weekday.=( But somehow rowing was good.Manage to balance and row well with some vital guidance from Damien.

Left around 12pm and we headed to Suntec for lunch.While having lunch,Derek and me were talking bout waxing our leg hair which looks really ugly.=/ so we went to get some waxing paper from Guardian and the girls volunteer to help us with the waxing.=) It was kinda painful in the beginning,but the gel somehow numb our skin after some time.And the results were great.totally hairless legs.hahhaha.Call me gay or whatever.I just hate the leg hair which makes me look so uncle.

Foo Huiyi,you're really good in acting huh.TSKTSKTSK.

2006-08-24T07:56:00.000-07:00

Shahfiq recently downloaded this ringing tone from the net.Its this really high frequency mosquito like sound.

I read about it online before and it said that now in US,students are using this ring tone in class.Cause only people at the age of 25 and below would be able to hear it,and above that age limit,they won't be able to hear a single thing.So if it rings in class,lecturers won't be able to listen to it.How cool is that huh.

okay,anyway shahfiq played it,and everyone could hear this high frequency sound that really hurts their ear,EXCEPT ME AND XIAOTING!
we could hear nothing!!

And I'm telling you that I was so afraid that theres something wrong with my ears.So now when I listen to my Ipod,I turn it to the minimum volume instead of my usual habit of blasting the earphones.

chemical engineering paper was a killer.well guess I deserve that.Haven been putting effort into my revisions recently.there's no motivation at all.And I'm always tired.I'm always sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.

sweetest night I had since a long time.<3

2006-08-21T06:27:00.000-07:00

New Balance Real Run was great!My first official marathon.=D
Derek was my partner of the day.we ran side by side throughout the whole race.
DAMN satisfied after crossing the finish line.hahaha.
OH OH,Julyn and me didn't get to collect our goodie bag.Cause we missed the collection date for our racepack.BUT SOMEHOW,we manage to get one.x)

hui yi!smile!=D

2006-08-19T06:05:00.000-07:00

Somehow I just felt a sense of jealousy,
when you told me bout your new crush.

2006-08-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

Studied with Jerryl and her friends in Jurong Library.At least I learnt some things from Jerryl's friend.=D

Last minute,Dhan called and told me there's Festpiel performance at Victoria Concert hall today.

I tagged along,treating it like a gathering for all the old school mates.

We were late,so we didn't thought of getting a ticket.x) we gate-crashed.
anyway the performance was boringgggg...lucky we didn't pay to watch it.

Met lots of old school mates,and the feeling was great.Missing all those fun we had when we were still in Whitley.

We left and headed to boat quay.Mark suggested getting a drink in some pub,but it was kinda hard to get in,so we got our drink from 7-eleven.shit,and they keep disturbing me,saying I still have to wait for a year before I turn 18!!argh.30th december!!

chilled around boat quay,caught up with Sling and Nigel bout MY OLD SCHOOL,IJC.hahah.seems like its getting so interesting.

Freya please,lets go back asap!!=D

After that,we went to our all time-favourite,PRATA HOUSE,for supper.I just love the prata lah.Damn nice.Great gathering.=D

2006-08-12T08:21:00.000-07:00

Relay duathlon.

Reach there around 1pm with Yunus(my partner).

Before that,Derek's team got sixth and Jonathan's team got third.

Was happy for them, but soon the fact of them doing so well was building up pressure inside me.

Even though everyone said they're just going to have fun and stuff,they're still giving so much for the competition.

Soon it was our race.Yunus started running cause he was the first runner.I was waiting for him to return.

Standing shoulder to shoulder to us were NS men and guys so much older than me.Of course I felt nervous.

now the most shocking part of our race.

YUNUS CAME IN FIRST AMONG THE FIRST RUNNERS.

No doubt,I was stunned for words,but we wasted no time and continued with the paddling.

We did really badly for our paddling cause we were really nervous and therefore we didn't paddle like how we always do during training.

One by one,we were taken over by other teams.It was freaking tiring.My arms feels like its having a elephant on it everytime I raise my hand to paddle.

Eventhough, we're losing we still manage to have fun by scolding those fucking NS men who doesn't have sportsmanship at all.Talking to the pretty sea marshals.hahaha.

When we reach the shore,it was my turn to run.

The moment I started running,I couldn't coordinate my legs AT ALL.I don't know why.
My breathing was all messed up.stop a couple of times.It was bad,bad bad.

I tried to think of my partner,doing well for him,but my legs just won't listen.

Guess by that time we were already in the 10th position.

Just when I was about to reach the finish line,about 500m away,Yunus instead of being angry with me,smile at me,ran side by side with me and encourage me!

I was so fucking touch I swear.I just felt so sorry towards him.I cause him to lose his first prize.I just felt like bursting into tears but...there were many people there...so ya somehow I controlled it. I'm soooooo sorry Yunus.Really sorry!=(

Its really a god's gift to me,to have Yunus have my partner.

Thanks bro,you're my man.

2006-08-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

Relay duathlon tomorrow.=D

2006-08-08T07:41:00.000-07:00

Firstly, my first semester is coming to an end.And frankly speaking,I've enjoyed not a single moment of it.Exams are just 2 weeks away and I've yet to touch my books.

I'm just procrastinating all these while.

Material science common test on Thursday and now I'm just starting to flip through my textbook.

Inside me,I just can't feel the urge to study and I'm always feeling sleepy.thats really weird.

Training has come to a standstill for the moment due to exams.But I just can't stop excercising,or else I'll feel unhealthy once again.

Eversince I joined kayaking,it made me realise that like what Derek said, "we'll never know our limit if we push ourselves." And seriously, I think at this rate, I can easily finish my 2.4km in 10mins. I think anyone in kayaking can do it.

Damien's words reverbrated throughout my mind whenever I'm running, "Its always mind over body, keep pushing it, keep pushing it."

Today is the eve of national day.

Everyone seems to be occupied by their classmates or love ones.I just can't find anyone available.

BUT,I managed to find someone available after asking around for some time.Rina.

Met up with her.Caught up with her over coffee and it was really..heart-warming in a sense.
She's one girl that I can really click well with.

Constantly getting hotter.She's attached to a bung again.TSKTSKTSK.

It was around this time last year,when we were together and we catch the fireworks together.

Anyway, its history for now.

After chatting with her, I realise I've been rather lonely nowdays.

Always heading home straight after school.Hardly hanging out with my classmates.We're just people of extremely different frequency.

Facing the laptop every now and then after school has made me geeky.Life has became plainly white and black for me.

how sick can life get?

2006-08-04T06:54:00.000-07:00

No school today!But I still went back to school for self-training with Derek.We have decided to have self-training every friday.=D And we'll be super duper fit soon!hahaha.

After training, met up with Shermien.She had spare time before her Latin dance practise starts and I was free for the whole day, so we decided to catch a movie.Watched Click, its interesting!
okay okay!at first it was funny,but at the ending, it was really sad and I kept tearing!x) Its nice catching up with her after so long.She's having her prelims soon, so all the best Shermien!=D

Came home,slack.I just feel so mentally exhausted these few days,guess I'm lacking of rest.argh.
Then all of a sudden,mummy wanted to catch a movie,and of course I agreed!(course she was paying)hahaha.Watch 'Dragon Tiger Gate'.OMG.its really really nice.especially the fighting part.freaking cool lah.Shall watch it again.=D

2006-08-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

Once again,the player have been played.
Just how pathetic can it get..argh.

2006-08-01T05:01:00.000-07:00

This post is delicated to all my friends.I'm really for neglecting you guys all this while. I guess I'm just too busy with my school.although this is just my first semester in poly,I think its already stressing me out with all those reports,presentations, and assignments.But at least its all over for my first semester.

okay the first thing is,I just realised that jerryl's and phyllis's birthday just passed,and I forgot to wish them a happy birthday.argh.I'm really really sorry jerryl and phyllis!!For many others,if I've forgotten bout your birthday,please forgive me!=(

Next,there are many old pals out there that i've not contact for longlonglonglonglong time,and I apologise for that too.For example,fardhan,khari,venetia,Joelle and many others.I promise you guys I'll get back to you guys as soon as the holidays come.

2006-07-30T16:33:00.000-07:00

I'm just addicted to your msgs.
how sweet can you get?
awww...=D

2006-07-29T07:16:00.000-07:00

Did self-training with derek yesterday.Totally satisfied.=D Left for Whitley with derek around 1pm cause I needed to take my Os certificate.Food in secondary school is really really cheap man,unlike poly.argh.After that,I stayed back cause there was a performance in school,some concert organised by whitleyans.

The performance was horrible.But not the catching up with my old schoolmates.Totally enjoyed myself when I'm with them.full of fun and laughter.Went to chill with Mark after that,been a long time since we sit down and talk bout our life.I think secondary school friends are so much better than my current batch.The only people that I really enjoyed being with is those in kayaking.thats all.

For example,there's a real loser in my class,who's also in kayaking.How I regret knowing him.
I don't give a fuck whether he's angry or not.LOSER.

2006-07-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

School is soooooo boring!!!!I need a break!I need a longggg sleep.argh.
The only thing I like about school is kayaking training.everyone is just so nice.It seems like training is getting tougher and tougher!!But it helps me to gain my muscles asap!!
hahha!!okay,I'm bored.=(

you were just the flavour of the week

2006-07-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

hey people!Its time to have fun!Taking part in Opens with Yunus.Wanted to take part in under 19, but he's already 19.but anyway,the chance of getting the top 3 is like 0.0000000001%.No matter what,we'll just try our best.=D More details http://relayduathlon2006.blogspot.com/.

2006-07-22T05:24:00.000-07:00

Kayaking training was cancelled today, cause there's the annual National Canoe Competition at Macritchie today.Went down to support the seniors that were taking part.As usual,hunks and babes were everywhere.Sad to say, none of the seniors won.Most of the winners went to NUS, and NTU.Its quite unfair actually when we have to compete with these older competitors.

The weirdest thing today was there was a hongkong national kayking team that flew over to Singapore just to take part in this competition,and of course were really strong. Learn some ways to kayak today, pretty useful. After today, it really push me to work really hard to be in the team and represent NYP kayakers.=D

2006-07-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

Training was good,did 19 rounds the track.felt great after the run cause its like I never ever thought I can run 19 rounds!but i did it!Samantha is a good senior,she just keep pushing us to run as a team and shes freaking fit.she does whatever the guys did.Oh,theres a kayaking competition on saturday at MacRicthie(how the hell u spell it),going down to support the seniors!=D

Next week,4 reports,2 tests,and one major presentation.hias,but after next week,school will be so much better.can focus on revising.Felt moody today,cause its like I stayed up till 1am to do the whole report last night and my partner was asleep at 11pm.In the morning when we met,he still can talk to me as if he doesn't feel guilty at all bout last night.what an ass.Another thing bout him is,he's too crazy over his girlfriend.We're suppose to do our preparations for the presentation after school,but he request to leave earlier cause he's catching a movie with his girlfriend.He can't even sacrifice a date for the presentation.argh.

2006-07-15T07:27:00.000-07:00

why the fuck must you irritated me all the time?why?why irritated me when I'm so happy.
Why must u call me and say such sarcastic stuff to me?fuck u asshole.

2006-07-15T05:58:00.000-07:00

I DECLARE:THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!
15-7-2006

Today we had school of chemical and life science soccer tornament kickoff.Our team which is made up of 8 students from year 1 in molecular biotechnology and 2 chemical and pharmaceutical students which is Che and me.This is the first time we saw each other and before the tornament we didn't even play with each other before.At first I was feeling really pessimistic cause my other teammates look rather geeky and know nothing bout soccer while other teams were all in their team jersey,looking really confident.And there's year 3 team that was the previous champion,they really look intimitating.

BUT,when we started playing.ITS A TOTALLY DIFFERENT STORY.
there were 7 teams in total and we had to play a league.every team had to play 6 matches.
played our first game,and I found out that my team was really a team of hardworking people.even though some of them didnt really know how to play,they never gave up on loose balls and kept every muscle on their body working.I was REALLY amazed.Won our first game 3-0 and it kinda boost our confidence level alittle.We went on to win our following matches.And the feeling was really good.cause we were winning all our games,and leading the league table with maximum points.

Around our 4 game,my legs started to give way cause it was really tiring.Everyone was feeling dehydrated due to the hot weather.soon,it was our turn to face the big boys,the champions of 2005.okay the interesting part.When the whistle was blown,Che immediately shoot from the centre and it WENT IN!Everyone from that team just look at the ball as it went in!it was just so shocking.It was an extremely tiring game.In the end,we won the previous champions by 3 goals to 2.hoohoo!!!The gold medal was just so near to us!!!!

Our second last game,which also decides the champion.We played against the team that were just right behind us in points.And we won 3-0.=D.

WE WERE THE CHAMPIONS OF 2006!!!!!!!

We created history by ending the competition with maximum points and being the youngest team of players to win!our average age was 17,18.while the others were 19,20.everyone was just amazed by our achievement today.

And after this competition,I found out why our team was able to win is just because of a simple reason,able to work as a team and believing in themselves.I'm so proud of you guys.

A star team is always stronger than a team of stars.

2006-07-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

I really can't bear to part with my hair!!After six months!!!argh.
cutting it short cause I had to look presentable for my presentation,and also have that sport look since I'm in kayaking.anyway its time I get a new look.=D

2006-07-13T17:35:00.000-07:00

NYP SUCKS.ESPECIALLY THE PEOPLE.TSK TSK TSK.

2006-07-08T20:31:00.000-07:00

Down with a slight fever ytd so I decided to give training a miss.Hadiman kept calling me and I didn't want to answer him cause I knew that he would ask me to work earlier.I was suppose to work from 11pm-6pm.After a few calls,I decided to answer him,and I was right,he wanted me to work extra cause they were short of staffs.He sound so poor thing!argh,in the end I gave in to him and agreed to work from 4pm-6am.

It was really busy today.freaking tired........From the moment I step inside the kitchen at 4pm,I never stop doing order until 2am.It was packed the whole day.The queue just won't disappear.But thanks to Jerryl,Suhaimi and Romeo for helping me in between that I can manage.Jerryl sorry if u didn't feel good bout it.The preparation for the food side was not good,and it made Din really angry.So I stayed behind and helped Din with the preparation till 9am =( well, I still remember when I was still a rookie in dessert and drinks, he always providing me with a helping hand.So its right that I should help him.Oh,we hit our target today.6k.cool huh.haha.good job guys!=D

Well,no one cares.
but....can I just know that,
there's someone out there caring?
living aimlessly.

2006-07-05T02:26:00.000-07:00

On tuesday morning,went to kayak with chee tong and toh xin at East Coast.quite boring actually,cause only 3 of us went as kai zhi and bohan had swimming training.

After that,I headed to meet up with MB people.We were going to camp at Sentosa!hahaha.

actually it was cancelled,but it was on again at the last min,cause Suhaimi's gf manage to get off.

Around 8pm,we reached there,Romeo,his wife,carol and me.played cards while we wait for Suhaimi and the others to reach.they went to get the food and stuff for the BBQ.

At around 11pm, everything was ready and we started BBQ-ing!It was really fun.Cause at the small island opposite Palawan beach,they were having some kind of high-class party and blasting their nice music.

so we danced around cause no one was around except us.Played card games,chit-chatted about life in MB and I tell u,its really INTERESTING.For eg,we all know that Ryan is very stingy.TSKTSKTSK.Rul was really really funny!the way he speaks and his jokes makes everyone laugh like hell.hahaha.

Bought liquor and we started drinking.It was really strong liquor and soon, I couldnt take it, felt like puking.Went to buy some hot mocha and I felt better after that.

Soon one by one went to their tent and sleep.Only me and rul were awake.He told me bout many freaking encounters during NS in the civil service.and it was really FREAKING.One of the worst encounter was during his civil service training.they had to train to be prepare for fire accidents.so during this pratice,Rul was in this building with this man-made fire,with dummies all in the building.while he was checking this room, he heard a muffled voice shouting help me help me.so he thought maybe he's teammate was in trouble and he went over.to his amazement,amidst the hustle and bustle, the DUMMIE WAS TALKING TO HIM!!!ASKING HIM TO SAVE HIM!he freaked out and ran down the building.lucky he didn't go crazy.thats how freaky it can get.

Soon the sun was up, and I went for a swim with carol,it was real refreshing.around 9am,everything was packed and kept in Suhaimi's car.Went around Sentosa the whole day.
-underwater world
-cinemania
-dolphin lagoon
was dosing off when we were watching those dophins.damn tired.

6 plus,we went to siloso beach and played soccer and volleyball.had loads of fun!!=D
cabbed home around 10pm.thanks guys for this amazing outing!!!

mum and dad were quite angry with me for staying out for 2 whole days.I lied to mum that I was staying over at a classmates house,but it was a WHITE LIE.cause Mum is pretty paraniod at times,so if she knows I'm at Sentosa.she won't be able to sleep in peace and will keep calling me.Well,Julene ang,if u're reading,please keep your mouth shut to yourself and don't tell mummy and daddy anything.

well,its study time now,see you!=D

2006-07-02T09:02:00.000-07:00

Kayaking training was good.No one was there except NYP kayakers.cause on Sunday there's a national dragonboat competition.so shiok,its like kallang belongs to NYP kayakers!did 22 laps with Yunus,and we felt real good after training.headed to LKK's house for his brother's birthday party.caught up with Jie Yi and LKK,they updated me with lots of stuff thats happening in school,and it really make me regret not studying well and getting into IJC!=(

He came over to my house to watch soccer after that.He took DRAW-ENGLAND ,but he lost.he felt so depress.hahahha.I bet $5 on France.And the next morning,LKK rushed into the room and said I won $$!!hahaha.I just slept through the whole day,freaking tired.

Had steamboat with the Kayakers at Marina South.amazingly,met Kaizhi,Emm and Tohxin over there.hahaha.Going kayaking with Chee tong and company tmr!!

2006-06-30T08:45:00.000-07:00

sleepover at Farhan's house on Wednesday night.He was suppose to teach me!but we ended up slacking.TSK TSK TSK.left his house around 12pm the next day, and went to meet LKK to study.He just finish his summer test.Studied, and around 6pm we went to watch SUPERMAN.
Its so boringgggggg......very draggy.it lasted bout....2 hours and 45 mins.

Went to school today for inorganic test.as usual la,don't have to talk much about my school life.Its as boring.After that, went to town with LKK to get his bro a birthday present.bought a ripcurl wallet for him.We left in a rush cause I had to play soccer with long seng and company.sorry LKK!went home to change and went to play soccer!!!
woohoo!been a long time since I touch a soccer ball.Quite fun cause I miss playing soccer with them.alright kayaking tmr!!!Its sun-tanning time!=D

2006-06-27T06:05:00.000-07:00

Maths paper was a disaster.did really badly for maths.well,can't blame anyone cause I didn't study much.=( CEP paper was much better.school just sucks for me.Dreading school everytime I wake up.After school,I went to meet Van cause I was feeling sucky and needed company.Watch Slither.quite boring actually.Headed to Chomp Chomp for dinner!!that place seems quite relaxing to me.shall go there more often for meals!Next test is on friday,inorganic chemistry.
argh!!!

2006-06-25T11:11:00.000-07:00

I'm having common test in 6hours later and I'm studying now.How pathetic can I get?
since last week I have planned to study on fri,sat and sun,but nothing have been done.
van asked me to stop procrastinating.but I really want to study just that I don't have the mood to study.hias.I need motivation!!!argh.

2006-06-23T05:30:00.000-07:00

Been working night shifts the past few days.On tuesday, I worked for 16 hours!!from 2pm to 6am.$$.hahahha.hais,I'm dreading school on monday.haven even study for my common test.
and I have to face my class.=(

I just don't have the mood to blog.

2006-06-19T07:55:00.000-07:00

Caught up with Joelle today.Heard lots of stuff about him.kinda disappointed.Why did he hated me for all those childish reasons?And what for behave like my good friend,and ask me for free ice-cream everytime he sees me?what a hypocrite he is.

2006-06-18T07:41:00.000-07:00

I was really shock when she told me everything bout you.who are you to demand so much from me?must I change to suit you?madness.

2006-06-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

I realised I have really great friends around me,for eg. venetia,joelle.although I only got to know them at the beginning of this year,we're already like friends that have known each other for years!Can't imagine life without them.I swear that I'll treasure them!!hahaha.

But there are always some people I regret knowing.well I think its better not to say names.

I don't like my class cause they're so boring and I can't really communicate with them well.But I don't have a choice.

U're not wanted.

2006-06-15T10:04:00.000-07:00

Recently I met with 2 really unfortunate events.

First incident
On tues,I went for kayaking training.And after I bathe I realised that I didn't bring my underwear to change!I tried to wash my current one and dry it with the hand-dryer but it didn't work.So I had to be underwear-less until I reach suntec.Sarah,Gen and Eunos accompanied me to get my underwear.After that day,I realise that I can't live without underwear!!!

Second incident
Just a few hours ago,when I was at Maestro,I went to the restroom.And after doing my stuff inside,I realise that there was no toilet paper!I panic,cause there were no male staff working at that time so i can't ask them to get toilet paper for me!argh.then i decided to give suhaimi a call and lucky he was nearby,and he came to rescue me.

2006-06-14T08:52:00.000-07:00

Sea training yesterday,and only around 15 people went,including seniors.During the whole training,Dunos was quite pissed with Alfred.he was damn arrogant and criticise that Eunos can't balance T1 kayak. now I realise we have 2 totally opposite cliques existing in the juniors.Our clique and the freaking euthu idiots.well,heard from Gen that many of them in that clique has a thing for Anju.I think shes the prettiest among the juniors.

anyway after sea training,I headed to Maestro to slack and watch soccer during the night.Helped them when they needed help and I did service!which I have never do since the first day I started working at Maestro.quite fun actually.oh ya,saw zhi hao after so long,with a date and his BROTHER.why did he bring his BROTHER out with him when his on a date?stupid idiot.hahaha.anyway,left around 3am and Suhaimi drove me to Farhan's house.Recently,I got to know more bout him,guess he's quite a nice guy.just that he keep pairing me up with carol.argh.

Eunos was there too,we chatted a little and all 3 of us felt asleep.betted on all the matches,and I on a winning streak!!!won 3 matches in a row already!!haha.
$$$!!

2006-06-10T18:13:00.000-07:00

Is this the right time?
I don't know.I'm confused myself.

2006-06-10T17:53:00.000-07:00

Finally I'm able to sit down and blog.yes,jaclyn I'm updating now!!haha.

Friday
Went to work from 6pm to 11pm.Oh,did I say maestro bistro install a projector for World Cup.
It was pretty cool.cause I can actually watch soccer when I'm making drinks or desserts.Ryan started a betting system between all the staffs in MB,which I think is quite fun,cause we can bet and watch while we work.I won the first match,but lose the second.After work,suhaimi sent Carol and me home.Got to know carol more while we were in the car,pretty nice girl.Went to dhan's house instead of going home.Watch soccer,catch up with each other.Slept at 6am.
was suppose to go training,but was too tired.

Saturday
Went to work at 11pm to 7am.lose another game today.total $20.=( nothing much today.

Sunday
its 8am in the morning and I just reached home from work.freaking shag.Sometimes I wonder why am I working so hard for?well,material desire.what else.

2006-06-04T07:19:00.000-07:00

kayaking training yesterday.It was quite boring actually.We did capsizing today,and the bad thing is we have to take turns to use the kayaks to capsize.Practically waited for 1 1/2 hour until I manage to get into the water.I was one of the last few who went out to the water.At first I thought that it was quite stupid to capsize.BUT!! It was fun to capsize! As in the procedures to follow and get back onto your kayak.I even request to capsize twice!And lucky the senior allowed.hahah.

worked today,quite boring.=(

I feel like I'm the extra one between you and him
well since you made your choice and its him.
I'll respect that.

2006-06-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

Finally,'m sitting down and relaxing.It has been pretty hectic for me the past few days.

Tuesday
Went head straight after school and went to MOS during the night.it was freaking pack and the queue was really really long.In the end,I didn't really enjoy myself.It was like Zouk,so pack.
anyway,we left around 3am,chee tong and me cabbed to east coast and slept over there.

Wednesday
Woke up around 7am.I was supposed to work with chee tong as kayaking instructors for a group of people that were going to kayak.the group only came at 11am.damn tired.the waves were pretty rough as it was very windy.first time working as instructors,but in the end I still manage to teach them the basics.The group left around 1pm.And I earn $30 just for 3 hours.hahah.chee tong,kai zhi,bo han,jun han and me started playing with......sand -.- childish at mind.but we had fun lah.then there was this time,i dive into the water and i drop my specs!!!And I kept looking for it with my feets.After searching for around 1/2 an hour,when I was about to give up......kai zhi's classmate found it!!!thank god.Was suppose to head to school for soccer competition.but luckily,it was postponed.I was super duper exhausted,so I went to ah ma's house and took a nap.

Today
Went to support Levin at mediacorp after school.Met many of my old classmates!many didn't recongnise me with my new hair!!they only realise it was me when I'm 1m apart from them.tsk tsk tsk.have I change a lot?Anyway,levin didn't manage to go to the next round.poor thing huh.but..well,he's still young,he still has his chance in singing.don't worry levin!we know you did your best.=D paul and jonathan got in.but i still think that what ken said to levin was kinda harsh,especially to a 17 guy.
No looks
No voice
No style
No chance
thats how cruel reality can be.Its just part and parcel of life I guess.

please I just hate talking to you.U're just so gay to me,especially with that stupid accent.How I regret knowing you.
shoo asshole.

2006-05-26T07:01:00.000-07:00

Never ending lab reports,tutorials and discussion forums.
Working and kayaking take up the rest of my time.
I'm really tired.mentally exhausted.
please,I really need guidance from someone.

2006-05-23T06:45:00.000-07:00

Got pissed off after reading Joelle's tagboard.Her boyfriend,Sly,left some really lame comments about my name when I didn't even offend him in any way.what the fuck is wrong with him?

2006-05-21T07:05:00.000-07:00

I've always think u're a nice guy.but u're getting on my nerves my friend.
Are u attracted to me?seriously?anyway,it really leaves a bad impression when everything u talk to me about is dick?although I may crack dirty jokes at times,its really disgusting when u keep talking bout dick?there's always a certain limit.anyway,hope things will change for the better.

Went for kayaking in kallang on saturday morning!!the moment we reached there,before our eyes were hunks,hunks and more hunks!super hot bods.I'll get that hot body soon x) lot of hot girls too.play Dog and Bone,and got to know more of my kakaying friends,and realised that they're a nice group to mix with.And coincidentally I met jun han and charles.they're in NP canoeing.Went for lunch at suntec and headed home.brought grandma out for dinner at this restuarant which was only a stone throw away from my kayaking place!wasted my transport fare.

We have a new menu in Maestro Bistro.they added some new desserts and drinks.which is bad news for me cause I have to start learning again.=(

sweat.R&B.babes.french.alcohol.
what time is it people?bet u guys know it. x)

2006-05-19T07:25:00.000-07:00

Should I dreadlock or perm my hair?

I give up.

2006-05-17T12:57:00.000-07:00

Now its 4am in the morning and its half-time for champions league final between arsenal and barcelona.Placed $5 bet on arsenal,and so far it looks good cause arsenal is leading by 1-0.

Kayaking training was fun today,enjoyed myself.Although everyone was getting tired,the spirit was still there and everyone still gave their best for the training.felt great throughout the whole physical training,got the momentum for jogging,but pull-up was still as bad.

have been staying quite up quite late these few nights.thanks to all these reports.argh.I'm getting dark circles around my eyes already.Dreading school tommorow,super long day.Please someone please keep me awake!!argh.

I'm tired.I'm really tired.

u're all I want but I'm not what u desired.
Its him,its him.

2006-05-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

I was just too naive to think that things are progressing smoothly.
I'm just stupid.

2006-05-14T18:47:00.000-07:00

I didn't want to be a distraction to u...I'm sorry..

2006-05-13T07:34:00.000-07:00

hey dude! had to leave a note here as yr offline yet once again. heh. hope you like this template. &sorry i couldnt add yr chatbox. will help u next time yea? and red rocks! yea man. haha. talk ta u soon(:

jaclyn

2006-05-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

just came back from kayaking pt in sch.they were having a selection cause too many joined already.and lucky me!I got in.=D but the pt reminds me of my ncc days in whitley,quite tough.but the muscular bodies of the seniors really motivates me to train harder!!shag.

Let people notice u,be confident.

2006-05-09T06:17:00.000-07:00

hey dude all the best,guess she's yours.
u lucky piece of shit.

2006-05-06T18:52:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY

Went to town after school alone.Was feeling moody and needed someone to talk to,so I went to Maestro Bistro to look for EL.The moment I reached there I was forced to work,they were lacking of staff that night,so I stayed and work.closing was fast,I really have to thank all the staffs that helped me.a really big thank u to all of u!been a long time since I see everyone helping each other out when they can.working in Maestro Bistro is a really unforgetable experience for me.although it can get really tiring when u work throughout the morning,but they still can joke and laugh,enjoying every sec they spend working.anyway,reached home around 7am.

slept amd woke up at 9am,and went to meet the kayaking guys,feeling real shag.slept on the kayak.today's water was pretty rough,but its really fun.crashing every wave that is in your way.
I really love kayaking,when u're out in the water,it really helps u to forget everything.left around 4pm.

headed to grandma's house.celebrated mother's day over there.

playing hard to get,
girls are cunning.

2006-05-04T06:31:00.000-07:00

B.Y.O.B-System of a down

WHY DO THEY ALWAYS SEND THE POOR!
babarisms by barbaras
with pointed heels.
victorious,victories kneel.
for brand new spanking deals.
marching forward hypocritics
and hynotic computers.
you depend on our protection,

yet you feed us lies from the table cloth.
La la la la la la la la la,
everybody's going to the party have a real good time.
dancing in the desert blowing up the sunshine.

kneeling roses disappearing,
into moses' dry mouth,
breaking into fort knox,
stealing our intentions,
hangars sitting dripped in oil,
crying FREEDOM!

Blast off,it's party time,
and don't we live in a facism nation,
Blast off,it's party time,
where,the fuck are you?
......yeah
where the fuck are you?
where the fuck are you?

why don't presidents fight the war?
why do they always send the poor?
why don't presidents fight the war?
why do they always send the poor?[x4]

kneeling roses disappearing,
into Moses' dry mouth,
breaking into fort konx,
stealing our intentions,
hangars sitting dripped in oil,
crying FREEDOM!

handed to obsoletion,
still you feed us lies from the tablecloth.
La la la la la la la la la,
everybody's going to the party have a real good time.
dancing in the desert blowing up the sunshine.
everybody's going to the party have a real good time.
dancing in the desert blowing up the sunshine.

where the fuck are you?
where the fuck are you?

why don't presidents fight the war?
why do they always send the poor?
why don't presidents fight the war?
why do they always send the poor?[x3]
why,do,they always send the poor?[x3]
they only send the poor[x2]

-amazing song

2006-04-29T21:56:00.000-07:00

Sch is hectic,lots of projects coming up.got to know more about my classmates,found out that they're really nice people.take for example,I don't understand maths,many of them will keep asking me if I need them to teach me or them.really nice.anyway,suren and me totally agreed that geraldine look like a whore.TSK TSK TSK.

Anyway,went to east coast with kai zhi,charles,chee tong,jun han,bo han to kayak.3 girls from tkgs joined us,heard that jun han got to know them while kayaking.well we're taking about JUN HAN,ya so..its quite fun actually.we kayak all the way out to sea and got off our kayak and swam.shiok!
went home around 6pm and went out to celebrate dad's birthday.

went to play soccer this morning,was late for the first half,so I played the second half.we won 5-1.
quite tiring.anyway,thats all for now,need to take my nap.ciaos.

2006-04-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

Just how insensitive can u get?or are u really that innocent as u seem?

2006-04-21T06:54:00.000-07:00

my maths lecturer really rocks!hahaha!he teach maths like he's rapping!he just go through all the steps very very fast.as expected,many of us didn't understand what he was teaching.guess we have to pay more attention during our tutorial.

Today WAS supposed to be a long day,but almost 5 hours of lessons were cancelled.played pool at AMK.slacked in MOS after that.went to meet Jaclyn around 5pm.accompanied her to get a cake for her classmate's birthday and went home.nice chatting with her.

joined soccer and kayaking!

going for AJC's family day carnival tmr.and soccer in the night.=D

2006-04-18T06:03:00.000-07:00

Damn fed-up with my parents.told them I need a laptop but they're not getting me one!
told them $1900 is consider quite cheap already.but they just dont believe me.kept asking me to buy from outside when its like so much more expensive,and it dont suit us.

anyway sch was alright today,guess I was getting the hang of it.went for the CCA fair at the sports hall.saw some dance performance.superb.there's these 3 guys,they did pop and lock.amazing.how I wish I can do that.hias.don't know what to join.feel like joining lifeguard,and get a certificate by the end of 2 years I think.but..I'm not very good in swimming.in the end guess I'll be joining soccer.
Its still my passion to play soccer.

saw the BOMBSHELL today.shes a lifeguard.cool huh.

2006-04-17T05:17:00.000-07:00

first day of sch and it was really boring.lectures the whole day,can fall asleep.hanging out with Suren all the time,guess hes the only one in my class that I can click with.he's not a virgin.

anyway,there were only 2 or 3 babes so far.Saw the BOMBSHELL,shes not that pretty when u see her upclose but she has a hot figure.

so far,3 classmates though i was eurasian,2 thought I was malay.hahaha.do I look like a eurasian or malay????weird.

running out of clothes.its really giving me a headache.now,I'm thinking what to wear to sch tmr.hais.should really go shopping.I'm short of jeans.but i wanna get my ipod nano...= (

2006-04-11T00:02:00.000-07:00

Went for orientation.hias,as expected,all geeks.can't even find a hot one,until I saw the overall orientation leader,shes hot!!!she just caught my eyes when I scan through the crowd.she wore this shirt that said Bombshell which is so true.orientation games were boring compared to IJC.

lucky I manage to leave earlier cause I have to attend Romeo's wedding.went home,got ready and went to meet Vanessa.her parents fetch us to the restuarant.jonathan,sandy and ryan went too.
It was just a simple dinner.but the food was not bad,all curry!!my favourite!

we stayed till the end of the dinner and went to get some Volka and played card games.after that we went to some pub and started drinking.opened a bottle of Martell and played all kinda games.was enjoying ourselves alot.

around 3am the pub close and Romeo suggested that we go to his house to continue drinking.we cabbed to his house while Ryan went home and get some liquor.he came back with 2 bottle of chivas and 1 bottle of Jack Daniel's.

when we were about to start playing games,Romeo's wife asked him to go to the room.And they were doing that.it was damn funny lah,like all of a sudden have sex.hahaha.around 20mins later he came out and we started playing.was getting a little tipsy already.we one and a half bottle of chivas.jack daniel's was too stong,so we leave it aside.

and guess what,Jonathan got drunk.he kept losing so therefore he kept drinking.he was talking all sorts of nonsense.damn funny!ryan,me and romeo laugh until like we're mad!!then we left around 6am.when we were about to left,jonathan dashed to the toilet and started puking.few mins later,Romeo puked too.all curry.hahaha.Ryan is a really good drinker.

thought I was alright until I reach home.started puking.non-stop.even my limbs were like jelly.
my stomach was damn empty.guess we drank too much.it really hell for me!!I was vomiting curry,which was quite spicy and it burn my throat when I was puking!

I didn't go for orientation.too shag.I didnt go for work too.scared I'll puke at the ice-cream,so it'll be wiser to stay at home and rest.

whats wrong with my life?
Its so wrong.

2006-04-06T06:33:00.000-07:00

Getting sick of working.same routine every night.

but ytd's night closing was superb.everyone was helping each other in any way they could.there's this new malay uncle,I forgot his name.he was really nice to help me with the waffle machine,thanks uncle!!

And we had project spring cleaning!It was a just a reason to divert hadiman's attention.we were planning to play a prank on him!it was his birthday.Romeo came back at 1am and prepared those dirty water bombs.the prank wasn't carried out that well.but it was fun though.haha.

after that we went back to the cafe.Romeo brought a bottle of Chivas.

sweet =)

we started drinking,mixed it with pepsi.Romeo used to be a bartender by the way.

I pity Hadiman,he had to drink pure Chivas!he was REALLY REALLY unwilling to drink.He keep saying he's a bad drinker,he's drunk.all sort of excuses and it was really funny.

Romeo's soon-to-be wife came too,they were really sweet.x) oh ya,they're getting married on Monday,guess I'm going with Vanessa.Romeo's wife is from China,so Romeo speaks to her in chinese!(Romeo is an indian by the way) heard that Romeo used to study in Taiwan.

we played card games,drank and ate cake.by the way,Ryan was really high!!he was laughing damn loudly,as if he was the manager of cine!guess he was drunk.but I think its been a long time he's so happy ever since he started working here.

we left cine about 3am.on the transport van,we were having dirty conversation.everyone was kinda drunk I guess.I was feeling tipsy already,and I just kept quiet and laugh at their trash talk.It was really really fun!!totally enjoyed myself!!

but I'm working on this fri and sat night which is so tiring!!!

woke up around 1pm this afternoon.suffered from slight hangover.Went to kahtib and played soccer.after that we went to yishun stadium to watch SFC vs GFC.I took home-home.which means SFC must lead in the first and second half.I was about to win for the first half when in the last 30seconds,GFC scored!I just lost in the last 30 seconds!!I left the stadium at half time.argh.

2006-04-04T21:52:00.000-07:00

working on five days for this week.

mon,tues,wed,fri and sat.real shagg.

but as what vanessa said,everyday u work,u get to buy a new shirt and that really motivate me to work.

jiang han is fucking lazy.totally pissed off last night.all of us were busy doing closing and she was sitting down chatting on the phone.fuck.she thinks that she has EL as back-up,thats why shes having her way and not doing anything.so what if she has moodswings?she still have to work and not throwing tantrums.like we care?

hey,I do believe I failed u
hey,I know I've let u down

2006-04-01T06:42:00.000-08:00

Friday

Went to work as usual.but it was night shift,7pm-5am.fucking shag.the orders just keep coming.
jiang han was super lazy,didnt want to do the washing and keep playing.in the end I did the washing.transport van didn't come,so we decided to cab home and claim from the driver another day.BUT,I forget to get the receipt from the cab driver!!!argh.it was $23!!!!from ang mo kio,to sengkang and to my house.ahh!!!really hope I can claim.

woke up around 5pm today and went to meet the usual gang for soccer at Sembawang.our opponents were strong.some china people.they looked down on us at the beginning.hur hur,thought we're just some kids kicking a ball around?but they were really nice to let us join them.we lead first.1-0.it was a really tough match.our standard were around the same.the score went on to:

singapore vs china

1-1
1-2
2-2
2-3
3-3
3-4
4-4
4-5
5-5
6-5

the game ended.we exchange handshakes and left.really stong team we faced today.but it was really fun.I scored a hat-trick okay!don't pray pray.=p

alright,I gtg and rest now.visiting my grandpa's grave tmr.I remember see chee yong last year at the Mandai Crematorium.chee yong's grandpa's grave is just a few blocks away from my grandpa's.they're neighbours.hahaha.

2006-03-30T22:51:00.000-08:00

argh!!!Basel won 2-0,lost money again.

2006-03-30T03:54:00.000-08:00

Lyon drew 0-0 with Ac milan!won $15.60.thanks for your luck.=)

alright,tonight Basel vs Middlebrough,took draw again.odds were $3.

please DRAW!hahahha.

Cause I think u're one of the cleanest and cutest boys
I see in the bus every morning.
awww,u just rock.=)